Do i have a soul?

My Tarot Card today was: HERMIT REVERSED. Which basically means, that Gods of tarot are telling me "don’t be alone today". i agree! Just had ping from a friend saying that he went for a long ride on his Harley Davidson Iron. Must have been an awesome ride. He had asked me yesterday. I was too dead and too emotional then to socialize – but should have gone with him. It sounded exciting. I must keep doing things I love to do. Who said I can't be emotionally messed up, and having fun - at the same time? There are no rules - after all, we are all just playing a role in a movie, aren't we?

Here's my theory:

Life is all about doing what you want to do… within reason and without hurting anyone. Right?

We signed up for this virtual reality experience called Earth, like "Total Recall" – and exactly like in the movie – we have tough time separating reality from drama; truth from stories; and real purpose from false priorities. We agreed to let some of our consciousness be suppressed, and we agreed to the story we would live. And when we come here on Earth – time slows down. The story builds gradually – from birth through growth years, when our mindset is developed, our social structures defined, our mental blocks created, and our basic thought process is formed. So much so that we become our story. And then the Plot unfolds with a series of events and situations and people coming into our life, and treating us in a certain way. By then, we are so interwoven in our emotions, and dramas, and story - that its hard to take a step back and look at it all clinically. We are meant to feel it all, but we are also meant to detach from drama, and learn.

The whole exercise of existence is to learn how to separate truth from fiction – and consequently ego from real feelings, and then learn to act on those feelings, on what your heart tells you. Because head would always have conditioning and phobias and ego. Heart would show the right path. The real guidance comes from listening to our heart. Sounds easy? Its not…

Why all this elaborate drama in life - you ask?

Well, I don’t know exactly. Like i said, we signed up for it. Maybe in soul state – there aren’t any challenges, or so they say – all those people who had glimpses of the soul state, and the ones that Dr Michael Newton (and others) regressed to the soul state. For all we know – as souls, we are just another intelligent race who lives in an ether world – with their own set of challenges, but obviously we can not even comprehend that scenario. The physical reality was possibly created as an environment to role play, with an end goal to learn something. What are we meant to learn?

I don’t know that either. If one of you has a theory – do share!!

We don’t know much. Like one question that has bothered me since I was eight years old – is how Universe could have no end? And how could it be infinite? Because, even if it is infinite, there has to be something beyond it. Right? Why do we exist? Are we just a product of some crazy chemical reaction or are we something more? Does soul really exist?

Remember TRUMAN SHOW. They created a whole contained world for him, with everyone else playing a character to lead Truman in a certain direction, and also established boundaries to his world. But he ‘knew’ there was more behind people’s masks, and the world just doesn’t end at the town limits. He could sense it. That sensing came from within him. If he had only seen the facts, what his eyes showed him, and what his mind interpreted – he would have had no urge to even seek beyond the ‘walls’. What a beautiful movie…

I, and everyone else, ‘knows’ that we are not just a carbon based life-form. We are more. We feel it. We feel it somewhere beyond our conscious mind. Is that soul? Is that our subconscious? It doesn’t matter. Call it whatever you will. What is important is the URGE. The urge to explore, seek, find….

We are so insignificant in the whole scheme of things. Yet, we somehow matter in this whole web of creation. We matter, big time!

Somehow!! How? I don’t know that yet.

Will think about it, and I am sure I will have a theory someday. The fun part is that in this Virtual Reality game, I have complete and total freedom of thought and speech. I know I can think anything, I can let my imagination soar and I can reach anywhere my soul wants to be – and as long as my ego is ok to be wrong, it is a fun analysis at worst, and some real epiphany at best. It’s a win win…

For now – I just know that “I am not, and yet I am…”

And yes, there is something beyond my mind and body. Its my soul!